31 Random Things About Me

On my 31st birth year, I thought of coming up with 31 things that would describe me as a person.

1. I am not married yet, but happily living together with MNJ.
2. I've been working in a call center for 8 years now and was never promoted.
3. I am OC. I want things in order, all the time.
4. I am an only child.
5. I get very upset when I see old friends and I'm not a part of the group anymore.
6. I gave up good friends for a quiet family life.
7. I was born and raised in Malabon.
8. I hate pets. Any animal, as in.
9. I am a graduate school undergraduate, is it grammatically correct?
10. I spent 5 years in college, only to graduate with an AB course. I wasted a year in taking up Nursing.
11. I love anything Pink!
12. I have a nice handwriting. (It's my bday, let me love myself much today!)
13. I love Mcdonald's Hot Fudge Sundae.
14. I am slow. Walking. Preparing. Eating. Slow.
15. I am an 'organizer' freak. I have a planner for work, one for home, one for the kids, one for me personally. I jot down every thought I have and everything that happened. So it's very hard for me to forget things of the past.
16. I only get a pedi every 2 weeks.
17. I am trying my best to grow my eyebrows back.
18. I am as brave and arrogant as my father, if you know him, you'll know what I mean.
19. If I can turn back the hands of time, I would continue teaching even after I got pregnant.
20. Teaching is my passion.
21. I blog when I'm stressed. It calms me down.
22. I am a frustrated writer.
23. I love reading stuff online, but I easily get bored with books. That's why I read my Twilight Saga through an Ebook.
24. I'm not good at taking pictures.
25. I'm good at fixing the home Internet connection.
26. I do not have plans of having more kids anytime soon.
27. I dream of being married to him, a simple exchange of vows. Period.
28. I use my teaching passion in reviewing for exams with my kids. haha!
29. I love my parents so much, I am willing to serve them as long as they are with me.
30. He is the one. I will not love any other man than the father of my children.
31. My children are my life. No more. No less.

Happy birthday Joyce! :)

Short Term Friendships

I have worked with several companies and different people. I have met wonderful friends that I have shared my tears and cheers with. But the sad part of it is I have never had a real-long-time friend. This is more of my choice to keep my distance from friends, because I was once a slave of them.

On my earlier years, it was my passion to keep my friends and stick with them. Being an only child, I never had the brother or sister whom I will be spending my entire life with. I have great parents and a very small family (who, now are all enemies) but never had a person other than them I can call mine. I consulted every decision I made with my friends. I listened to advices, right or wrong. I spent my first paycheck for them. Planned all my free hours with them. Celebrated birthdays, holidays and even Mother's or Father's day with them. I learned about vices, homosexuality, shop lifting, cutting classes and even lying from them.

I suddenly met a man who made me realize that there are things in life that are better done with the people who matters to you the most. Not all things in life needs to be consulted or even told to friends. And that was when I started to be content of my family. God is good and I have a small but happy family.

Since then, I never gave my heart out to a friend anymore. I treated each and every person an acquaintance that will later on vanish as time pass by. I shared a few secrets related to the current time I was with a friend, and shared more relevant stories with more relevant friends. I made efforts in communicating with old friends but they seem to have their own groups and I am not included. 

I didn't know if it was really my fault, or if I made the right decision. I decided, from the time I had my first child, that I will never ever be the kind of friend that I was. And it seems like when I gave less of myself, they didn't want me anymore. 

That was when I realized, I made the right choice. I never had a friend visit me in the hospital when I was confined for dengue and almost died. I never had a friend who visited me in the hospital when I gave birth, twice. I never had a friend who regularly text and chat with me. I never had a friend who shares tears and cheers with me anymore. Where have they all gone? Gone.

This all happened when I stopped giving all myself to them, now tell me, I made the right decision, right?